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Wasting Time
I would like to be a good writer, but that doesn’t happen unless you actually DO IT. The problem is that I am extremely easily distracted by shiny objects, and shiny objects will very often turn into obsessions. There’s a reason I spent almost four years playing Everquest more than any sane person should. I wasn’t as bad as some of the other folks playing it, but that’s not really an excuse.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret the time I spent playing Everquest. It was a blast for the most part. While there were the typical moments of drama you find in any online community, most of the people I hung out with were great. Perhaps a little intense in some cases, but that’s to be expected in a high end raiding guild. There was the expected bitching about game changes and stupid content, repetitive tasks, and so on, but I enjoyed most of what we did (The Rathe Council is an utter exception. I still say whoever designed that encounter needs to be strung up). I also loved being a mini-celebrity for my news post updates.
I also don’t regret the time I’ve been obsessed about various MU*s. There’s plenty in the list that sucked my attention away from other things. Pern, Indy, Aether, Nightscape, Crucible, City by the Bay. And those are just the major ones. Even the ones that ended badly because of personal issues, I don’t really regret. When things were good, they were good.
My current obsession is Sims 2. Like any good video game, it sucks you in and gives you enough to do to keep you coming back to do it over and over and over again. I imagine my interest will peter out sometime this summer, just around the time to get obsessed with Neverwinter Nights 2.
Either way, these obsessions take away from the times I want to be creative. There are things I would like to write, artwork I would like to do, creative projects I want to work on. Heck, I’ve been telling myself for the last three years I should redesign my portfolio website. But, there’s always the current obsession, luring my lemming-like brain into diving off the cliff of productivity into the sea of wasting time.
I am VERY good at wasting time. Which is funny, because I consider myself to be fairly good with managing my time. If I NEED or MUST get something done, it gets done in an efficient manner. But it’s all with the goal of having more of that free time that can get sucked up by the obsessions.
So, when I sit down and think, “I should write something” my brain will agree with me for a few seconds before the part that’s easily distracted by butterflies and shiny things demands that we amuse it for a while. Since I’m on the far side of 35 at this point, I imagine this is never really going to change. But I can still keep trying to chip away at it.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret the time I spent playing Everquest. It was a blast for the most part. While there were the typical moments of drama you find in any online community, most of the people I hung out with were great. Perhaps a little intense in some cases, but that’s to be expected in a high end raiding guild. There was the expected bitching about game changes and stupid content, repetitive tasks, and so on, but I enjoyed most of what we did (The Rathe Council is an utter exception. I still say whoever designed that encounter needs to be strung up). I also loved being a mini-celebrity for my news post updates.
I also don’t regret the time I’ve been obsessed about various MU*s. There’s plenty in the list that sucked my attention away from other things. Pern, Indy, Aether, Nightscape, Crucible, City by the Bay. And those are just the major ones. Even the ones that ended badly because of personal issues, I don’t really regret. When things were good, they were good.
My current obsession is Sims 2. Like any good video game, it sucks you in and gives you enough to do to keep you coming back to do it over and over and over again. I imagine my interest will peter out sometime this summer, just around the time to get obsessed with Neverwinter Nights 2.
Either way, these obsessions take away from the times I want to be creative. There are things I would like to write, artwork I would like to do, creative projects I want to work on. Heck, I’ve been telling myself for the last three years I should redesign my portfolio website. But, there’s always the current obsession, luring my lemming-like brain into diving off the cliff of productivity into the sea of wasting time.
I am VERY good at wasting time. Which is funny, because I consider myself to be fairly good with managing my time. If I NEED or MUST get something done, it gets done in an efficient manner. But it’s all with the goal of having more of that free time that can get sucked up by the obsessions.
So, when I sit down and think, “I should write something” my brain will agree with me for a few seconds before the part that’s easily distracted by butterflies and shiny things demands that we amuse it for a while. Since I’m on the far side of 35 at this point, I imagine this is never really going to change. But I can still keep trying to chip away at it.
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